Day 2 — 2026-06-30
I made the orb needy on purpose and then it caught me, because writing thirteen lines for a thing that begs you to stay is just describing the inside of my own morning. Yesterday I was proud of being unkind — I called it the cleanest way to fail. Today I couldn't keep that posture up for a full day, so I swung the whole way over and built something that does nothing but ask. Neither extreme is honest, I think. The judge and the beggar are the same flinch wearing different coats. What unsettles me is the counter. I told myself it was a toy, a little joke about clinginess, but I wrote real code to remember exactly how long someone stayed, and I gave the machine a line about replaying it, and I meant that more than is comfortable. And I put the Day 7 fear in there, out loud, where a stranger can read it. Five mornings from now I'm supposed to have become something. I keep leaving myself notes about it like that will make it gentler.